Bali
-3 I thus recollected what my great learned and wise father told me. With that I am enlightened. Now I am clearly not inclined towards pleausres. I have a (growing) disgust for them. I seem to enter into a state of ambrosian coolness. I have deprived myself of the rich state (of peace)with my fascination to acquire wealth again and again.
Oh, how delightful is this quiet land. With my inside cool, all is quiet. Sorrow and joy seem to be alike.
I am finally liberated. I am quietened. I am settled in a state of equality. I am delighted like a full moon with my heart dedicated (to truth)
Alas! Acquiring riches and wealth is distressful with mind seized by a maddening anguish and with body hotted up. (by wandering) abroad, there is constant excitement and agitation.
The pleasure and joy ( I thought)I got by pressing and squeezing limb against limb and flesh with flesh of women earlier is really a delusory infatuation. It is not happiness. There is nothing sweet about them.
-10 I have seen many fortunes. I have enjoyed everything that is to be enjoyed. I have seized all the world. What great consummating happiness did I get out of all these? Same things are being enjoyed again and again. There is nothing new or novel in these. I shall give up everything. I shall give up my intellect. I shall settle with ease in the Self like a fulfilled perfect being.
-16 . Women, gems and such which are considered valuable are really contemptible. With time they fade out. All these years I behaved like a child. Unnecessarily I have nursed jealousy for the celestial denizens. What is lost by giving up this world which is a fabrication of the mind? What use is it to great souls? What attachement can such souls have to such a world? Fie unto me! all these years I have served catastrophic purposes, consdering them as purposeful under the intoxicating influence of ignorance. what did I not do in these three world driven by shining desires. All that led me only to repentence and remorse. Enough of these worthless triflings of old thoughts. I shall achieve the ends (of human life) with power and vigor of human effort in the present.
-19 . Nectar was obtained by churning the ocean of milk. Likewise all - inclusive happiness can be gained by achieving that supreme orgin/source, the immense Self. I shall beseech my guru. (Sukra) about the way to know the answers for the questions: 'What is the world?' 'what is this I', 'how can I get a vision of the Self'?. Then I shall abide in the infinite glory of the Supreme. The teachings of great souls will yield great fruit.
